Is Death What I want?

Autum comes...

& Autumn goes...

The dead leaves on the ground

sing songs of death for me...

Aah!!D lullaby of death..

I sway to the sound...

the intoxication of inevitable death

moves me, promises me freedom

that hitherto I only dreamed of..

D promise of winter upon me...

makes me shiver down to the spine...

The bare trees...

The skeletal forms shrieking in the cold

with pain & fury I do not understand...

But the white of winter...

the vanquished & tired sun...

promises me of peace beyond

Peace that every man in the world

wages war to win it...

Ironic isn't it?

We fight for peace...

We live for peace when death gives ultimate peace...

We cling when letting go gives us a chance...

But then I hear a single strand of sound...

I am dazzled by a single shaft of light

I see a single leaf on the highest of branches..

Aahh!! Am I that selfish...

that beauty reminded

moves me so much...

enthralls me...

Ohh!! Am I so shallow...

that I forget the promises of peace

I forget the whiff of freedom

for your beauty reminded me of life

so full of pain

yet so intoxicating

that I yearn for it...

Where did you come from...

MY LOVE...

Aahh...The single flower on your hair...

Reminds me all chaos of my life...

The death of that one flower

The peace that it feels...

Tell me my love...

How do I tell you...

How do I make you understand...

That I a man who yearns for peace...

I a man for whom love is a chaotic emotion...

Have nothing...

but bared his soul...

Aahh!!! The beauty flashes past by me...

& Madness afflicts me...

The madness & the rush...

that you inflict upon me...

consumes the ice of my heart by a blazing inferno...

I stand on the cusp...

of a change...

that gives me two choices...

A chance to ultimate peace..

My Death....

Or a chance to such chaos...

that shall rip me asunder...

A chance to have you...

Ohh!! This selfish selfish heart of mine...

I forget those promises of peace...

MY Love tell me now...

will death hurt me more...

OR YOU....

For...the poor heart of mine...

shall never comprehend the power of beauty...

the power to inflict such pain...

such chaos...

that I shall never live again...

But my love...

that shall be my peace...

& that shall be my salvation...

For My Love...

Again...it happens...

I fall for someone who........................

Ahh...The ramblings of an empty mind...

But the question...will she ever love me....