Saturday, December 6, 2008

A Gift of Love and Pain

I stand here alone, wet in a dark alley

Thinking how did a charmed prince ever set foot in such a puddle

 

Ahh! I reminiscence the days of my glory

Days of my love, fun and frolic

& Days that had you.

 

I cannot help but feel pangs of pain

Not to find you there with me……

 

And then it strikes me

That the gulf that I stand in front of is no God’s creation

It is but a distance between our hearts….

 

Why? Why my dear? Why did you choose to listen to your head?

It was me who was supposed to be practical

But when it came to striking the final blow

The dagger that you plunged in me poisoned me…

 

I see love around me,

Warmth envelopes me

But still I find myself in a cocoon of pain and shame

My heart still bleeds when I see you

My heart still leaps with joy when I see you smile

But then I realize the smile dies when you see me……

 

 

What did I do my love?

            What crime did I commit?

Was I possessive or was I selfish?

            Why is that you punish me for society’s wisdom?

Or is it that I was never good enough for you?

 

The love that you taught me to give

            Laughs at me, mocks me, scoffs me

For it knows that I have failed you.

 

I stand here stripped, bare and pauper

            And then it strikes me

The gift that you have given me

            Is a gift that I shall always cherish.

 

They to make a lost love great

            It is best to love everyone…

 

So today my love

            I promise you this

I shall love everyone

            And know this that I shall never be loved back.

 

Till the day I can, I shall love

             And I shall bear the pain of not loving you

And the day I am no longer capable of loving anyone

            I shall die loving you but hating myself

My love, my dear, my heart

 

Remember this, there shall be no one like you ever

            For the love that you have given me makes me live

But the hurt that you have given me shall never let me live.

 

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